a year (and a half) in boys
Nina Chabanon
1.)
break a pound of questions
by flesh
while I forget
2.)
a fool named Columbus
tries to conquer
a love island already full
3.)
who else saw that roof?
drank that beer?
liked that moon?
4.)
I can’t tell
if we’re friends or
if your music is ironic
5.)
you came in my bathroom
twice and I never
let you back in
6.)
ugly god, a tight joint
hey you reached nina
sorry I missed your call
7.)
just another
ken doll
in my attic
8.)
does wine taste the same
and does your mother
still talk about me?
9.)
it was me or her
and then me
and her then nothing
10.)
somebody else’s high school crush
put on a red condom
and got me high
11.)
you were too big for me
in more ways
than one
12.)
I’m still not sure
if you were a boy
or a mirror
13.)
there’s something
about your bed in particular
at 4 a.m.
14.)
a pantomime
of a romantic comedy
we don’t care
15.)
I feel bad that my picture’s
plastered on your mind
forever
16.)
I heard you’re engaged now
and I think about her mouth
on your tattoos
17.)
a leather jacket
couldn’t keep you warm
in my winter
18.)
eyes caught
at the bend of the bar
I almost wish I remembered your name
19.)
a soft lottery boy
every time we talk
it’s like you’re walking me home
20.)
“everything is embarrassing” – sky ferreira
21.)
you brought Vermont charm
to a knife fight
I sent you home in pieces
22.)
another boy another pantomime
except this time
he cares
23.)
you don’t know what love is
and I’m not the one
to teach you
24.)
twenty three boys on my shelf
I pick one up and look for a minute
then I set him back down