Presentation

the picture on the left is actually one of my favorite screenshot from the documentary. It is just so sarcastic that this male audience was trying his best to see what is going on on the stage. 

The media presentation of certain race/ gender is indeed really powerful in shaping the public’s perception of that certain group of people. There are many theorists and critics criticizing on the lack of presentation/ misrepresentation. I remember learning about Bell Hooks in my freshman year. 

I really really like this topic because I think I am the victim of this “societal norm” or “familial expectation”. I don’t understand (actually I hate) how Chinese people like to comment on other people’s body shape, especially their family members’. I grew up being the chubby kid in my family. And every time we had family reunions, when meeting with those relatives that I only met once or twice a year, they (mostly males) commented on my body shape. In 2022 after ~3 months of Shanghai lockdown, I finally met my father and we were walking together. At that time there was also a case that a few young girls were violently beaten in a restaurant around 2 am in China. My dad was trying to educate me about protecting myself AS A GIRL, and all of a sudden he said, well, anyways, you are not the pretty type to get assaulted. These experiences all in some ways, contributed to my eating disorder. ((But it’s okay I am getting thereeee, almost 

Ironically, after I finally lost a lot of weights and got skinny, all of a sudden, everyone started to be like, YOU NEED TO EAT MORE/ YOU NEED TO DO THIS YOU NEED TO DO THAT.

Funny 🙂

I really want to do a project on eating disorder, self-love and our perceptions on our own body. Because there are just so many people experiencing the same thing as I did, and it can even get fatal. Sometimes the society is putting too much unrealistic, toxic expectations on us, and we internalize them. Maybe one day, when I can fully embrace my body and embrace who I am, I will do that :D.