girl i’ve always been

By Pritheva Zakaria

 

i got mental wrongs 

and ticking time bombs 

but that’s the girl i’ve always been 

 

it’s never your destiny 

to end up with me 

rather, the girl right next to me 

 

i like to play games 

just like alice 

so what if i fall down a rabbit hole? 

i didn’t mean to bring about any malice… 

 

you can’t say i’ve changed 

when i can’t even write my own wrongs 

or see my faults 

because that’s the girl i’ve always been all along 

 

a little too wild 

very much like a child 

i look into windows and peepholes that aren’t made for me 

 

i dream of revenge and some sort of end 

because people like me never get along with any sister or friend 

 

i write songs in my head 

about the boys i want to bring to bed 

but it’s all just some sort of fantasy 

because who would dare be with me? 

 

just like the wind 

i seem to come and go 

but little do they know 

that i’m like the secrets they keep 

and i disappear like snow 

 

i’ve got so many mental wrongs 

and ticking time bombs 

in that beautiful little head of mine 

but you can’t say that’s not the girl i’ve always been