girl i’ve always been
By Pritheva Zakaria
i got mental wrongs
and ticking time bombs
but that’s the girl i’ve always been
it’s never your destiny
to end up with me
rather, the girl right next to me
i like to play games
just like alice
so what if i fall down a rabbit hole?
i didn’t mean to bring about any malice…
you can’t say i’ve changed
when i can’t even write my own wrongs
or see my faults
because that’s the girl i’ve always been all along
a little too wild
very much like a child
i look into windows and peepholes that aren’t made for me
i dream of revenge and some sort of end
because people like me never get along with any sister or friend
i write songs in my head
about the boys i want to bring to bed
but it’s all just some sort of fantasy
because who would dare be with me?
just like the wind
i seem to come and go
but little do they know
that i’m like the secrets they keep
and i disappear like snow
i’ve got so many mental wrongs
and ticking time bombs
in that beautiful little head of mine
but you can’t say that’s not the girl i’ve always been